Go The Distance?

Cut to the chase. Things happen for a reason. As meticulous as I can be, sometimes it doesn't all go according to plan. The strategy works if it all falls into place.

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Sometimes I feel things aren't what they will turn out to be. Sometimes, I feel like giving up on the promises I once held on to so dearly. Sometimes, I just want to play Russian roulette with myself and hope to live to tell the tale. But then sometimes, I just feel so relieved. Those are the times which I cherish most, no matter how short and how simple they might turn out to be for others.

It is still a long way to go on a journey with a dead end looming. The gut feeling within fails to ward me off from the perils. Come what may, for once I am true to my word till the very end. The things I do, how silly they might seem to be, always have their reasons. And honesty portrays the biggest picture of it all.

I am far from perfect. I am what I am; nothing more than a man with no bearing on how to be the person for others. But that won't stop me from trying. Far from it, it is the agony of the broken route that I will go through, and if unfortunate, succumb in.

Until I know who am I, I am no one.

And so I will keep going. Living a lie is no better than lying for life, nor vice versa. But living is what I can do, for now. That is all I will do, in fact.