Shattered

Broken to pieces in ways unexpected. Though how can I not see such a possibility in all things in a world that isn't bent to one's own will?

The feeling of being led astray, being taken on a ride. Being taken for granted all this time. The horrors of the past have revisited me in such drastic fashion, I know not of what else I could do. So similar and reminiscent to times gone by. One might say we best learn from mistakes. Yet when emotions take control, no mistake is avoidable, and thus since no solution was ever conjured to deal with the predicament, the result repeats itself over again.

Hence the tragedy and irony that I live in. There comes a time when we ask ourselves, what are we to others, only to receive answers that we do not wish to hear. But it is too late. No amount of forgetfulness or assumptions can mend a brokenness that scars the heart. At least for me.

How can I not feel distraught? Weeks gone by, and nothing does stay the same. As the dawns and dusks pass, feelings either dwindle or grow. And when nothing stops it from being ever-changing, the presumption stays as it is. The flow continues on, till the time comes for it to be revealed and thus end all speculation. But the dark side lurks, one which wasn't overlooked though lost in the moment. The fall, as it comes when the reciprocity is missing, absent from any trace. Non-existent. Fruitless.

Yet if so, why the passive actions which led to such a conclusion? The assumption was born out of conformity, when in fact neither should have had any base to stand upon. And I was lead on a route to a diminishing end. As exaggerated as it may seem, the hurt is everlasting, and hence the overflow of emotions. Uncontainable by all means.

The bottom line remains: why am I so foolish, to fall in such a manner? Though the fingers may point the other way, it takes two hands to clap. A cliche, no doubt, but a stinging one at that. The pain resides. It shall not subside easily.

I know not of how can I sleep soundly tonight, all I know is there is so much more less reason in life now. No matter what has transpired, nothing shall change the facts that stand out above the rest.

The question was answered.