The title were words whispered not two days ago. Somehow the years that went by never dimmed any thought or feeling. But time spent out there in the wilderness was a blessing in disguise. A matter of when, not if, things will fall into place. It finally is.
This space is sacred to me, where sorrows are etched throughout time, with hope to release such burdens. But not today, not now. From the brink of falling apart not too long ago, here I am penning words I thought I would never get the chance to. Here I am, for once taking so much time to recover from feeling the lost of words. Here I am, finally, uplifted, and ending years of doubts and uncertainty. Here I am for you.
The years have been harsh, to me at least. Long have I searched for a sunrise, while each day pouring out words of sunsets. Each time a new hope arises, I see a glimpse of you first, knowing already nothing will come from any of these ventures. Yet I trot on, hoping. And failing. And the cycle goes on. Never have I forgotten you, nor will I ever will. It is an impossibility. One which I am now so thankful for.
I sometimes wonder if the past was all a mistake, that we could have come this far if not for me being more open and brave and bold. I wonder as well, that what if the past happened just for the present to turn out this way. And lastly, I wonder what if we did not at all come to this. Where would you have gone? Where would I turn out to go? Where would we? Questions.
Yet, now I feel only you. I don't know how we got here, but all I know is that we are. And, there's far more places to go, far more to do. Together. Anyone can doubt us, even ourselves, but I for one am not gonna let doubt take this away. Not again. Not a third time. It will be my firsts in many, yet for one I'll be the happiest in the world so share many of those, if not all, with you.
I remember times that I reminisce about you, and now after long last I am not shy to say so. Well, maybe embarrassment doesn't leave me so easily than I would want it to, but at least here words go its mile without the eyes of the world fixated on it like hawks out seeking stories to talk about. The rarity that we rarely speak face to face troubled me, and I did not know if you felt the same way or not. The time spent getting to know each other, through the years, though, is second to none. Remembering from as far back as 4 years is no small thing. Remembering every word would be an exaggeration, but every valuable moment spent brought us here. And if you're as willing as I am, there's more to explore, together.
Maybe we're too young, maybe we're too fast. Maybe we're just unsure but willing to take the chance. As long as you are, then I am.
These are words I could not speak all those years ago, in times gone by. I speak them now, because you're finally here, and I dare not leave these words to be blown away in memory. You're the best thing that could happen to me, yet we've still miles to go. So imagine how special you are in my eyes, always was, and always will be. You're the sunrise.
I'll go the distance, to make this work, as long as you want it to. I promise.
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